So, thank you to everyone that posted. It wasn't my intention to leave this thread for so long, but circumstances forced my hand.
So. Personal stuff first. I was away with work for a month and when I got back, Mrs Loosh had moved out with Loosh Junior. I'm not going to lie; I was crushed. I still am, but I'm coming to terms with things. Had to go to the doctors at work and have a good cry in front of them. Then the same with my boss. Then the same with the mental health practitioners at work. It was fairly brutal, but very necessary; my mind was taking me to very, very dark places and I wasn't sure where they would end up.
'Why the hell are you telling us this Loosh? I only came here for the painting and the eternal disappointment of not seeing you paint any Eldar on a
predominantly Eldar forum.'
Well. It's important. It's also why it's here and not just on the Lazerous Penguins pages. Be open with things. Life gets rough. We all need support. Talk to people when it gets rough. Vent. Cry...just Feel; because if you don't speak to people and you don't show your emotions and you don't find the support you need, then you're alone. If you're alone, you are so much more likely to self harm. I always thought I was pretty robust, mentally...I'm in the military damn it and I play rough and tumble sports and work out and have facial hair sometimes and amphetamine parrot like that; but this year has seen me lose my Step Dad to cancer, put my Mum's Guide Dog down, get separated. It was all too much. Hell...I must have though up 100 ways to end everything on the first night alone...but I got the help I needed and hopefully, I'm in a good place now.
Hell...I've got a lot more time to do my hobbies now at least, so I must be
winning at life [/endsarcasm]
Really though, I view this as an opportunity to work on myself. I've lost about 6kg (13lbs to you colonials) in the gym (not just stress, woo!). I'm eating better. I'm not getting so stressed at the moment. I'm not getting angry. Hopefully, that improved me will be enough for Mrs Loosh to want to move back in with me down the line, but if not, then I'll be a better version of me and more able to cope with whatever life throws at me.
So look after yourselves, is all I'm saying.
Right. Enough of that. You came here for painting, so Yhwh-condemned it, I'm going to give you painting.
When I was away with work, I managed to paint a few models in incredibly dark conditions. So dark that I couldn't really tell how well the paint work was coming together. Apart from a few faces and the odd detail, though, I'm pretty happy with things. I'll touch up faces and eyes at some stage over the next couple of weeks.
So, first up...another Blood Bowl offering. This time based on the Seattle Seahawks and their colour scheme from the 80's. I could never do their current colours...they are awful.
I bring you the
Serra Tor Inner Sea HawksYou know how Cavalier always paints everything Red. Everything. I just realised that I'm the black to his white, the Ying to his Yang. I paint everything blue pretty much. There's got to be a hell of a reason for me to dip into another colour as the primary. It's my safe space.
So. On the Blue theme...more Crimson Fists!
This guy isn't new, but he did get a tiny bit of weathering to make him fit with everyone else. Also, because weathering is cool.
Next up is the Primaris Captain is Gravis armour. I know his sword isn't painted. I'm waiting for inspiration on that. When I know what I'm doing with it, I'll make sure I update you. Sorry he's a bit dark:
Next up, the Ancient with Standard. Man I hated painting this banner. I did it all in grey/white and it just looked wrong. Now that the front is in blue, I feel it works a lot better. The banner really isn't easy to paint, but I think with the transfers and a bit of weathering to tie it all in, I'm really chuffed to bits with him now.
And I think that's enough for today. I have a load more photos to put on the site, but I'm quite burned out from all the typing and
you know...emotionsLet me know what you think and above all, stay safe.